...About Stuff, Like Life and All That Jazz

well hello there my fellow friends.
how are you?
surprised aren't you, that i am finally writing here on blogspot once again. impressive i know.

well i dont really know what to say...since the original wedding plans changed things have been somewhat crazy. i am busy but NOT BUSY ENOUGH TO GO FOR ONE DINNER WITH MY FRIENDS...but whatever, i am not bitter. ha! i have been having stress attacks recently because it seems like nothing is getting done. we know what we want and we have people we want to work with but nothing has been confirmed, no contracts have been signed and its getting to me. my hope is to have things DONE by this week.
my biggest stress attack is coming from those invites. just when i thought they were ready and good to go i get a call saying that not only are those invites discontinued but that WHOLE invite BOOK that i ordered them from is discontinued. now i have to wait a day or two to get the new book, find NEW invites and place the order again. in the meantime i have no guest list....which alongside the invites is making me super nervous. good lord. WHO ARE WE INVITING?!, i shout everyday....well i dont shout...just maybe in my mind. which is probably why i am going crazy.

anyway, besides that things are peachy. oh yes. peachy. MY WEDDING DRESS IS IN! whoo hoo! i totally forgot how it looks, its been so long. lol. i have my first fitting on the...ummm...18th??...anyway, some day i july. you girls can come...but u suck cause u are all away. so poo on u. i am very excited to try it on, especially since it will actually fit this time. haha.

i am praying that i will be able to go to BC next week. we bought a house and i want to go see it! i need to get all the essentials for the place so that when i move there in sept. it will be ready. ya know what i mean?

i have also been eating super healthy this past while, because of my EWD- 'extreme wedding diet'....similar to the EED i had going on earlier (e= engagement). I am not going crazy with the fruits like i did in feb. but i am eating a lot of raisons (and almonds for some reason...), drinking more water than usual and sticking to egg whites, chicken and tuna, and i am going to the gym at least 4 times a week. damn. i stopped jogging...for obvious reasons...and i am just doing high cardio walking. ohh la la. i actually gained something like 7-10 pounds since the engagement which freaked me out. u all think i am dumb dont you?....anyways....

i think i have typed so much. enough of this. i will post some pics for ur viewing pleasure.

take care amigos.
love you and miss you all.
i cant wait until we have a reunion again.


Me and my husband-to-be. I was so happy that he could be there with me. :)


WOA + 1 in front of the limo. Oh how fun that car ride was...where i learned that real white folk actually wear seatbelts, and how immigrants like Jenn learn quickly the purpose of wearing one. lol!


Our last pic in the FESA office. Gotta love it.


+1 arriving LATE to the house...as usual!


Sweeeeet Success! A photo right after the ceremony. How happy we look.

...About Nothing

I am bored.

I hate this thing.

...About stuff

that is how bored i am...and how much of nothing that i have to say.
i titled my blog about stuff.

stuff- what is stuff?
how do we deal with stuff?
what kind of stuff do u eat?
how do we change stuff? or keep stuff the same?

stuff- S.T.U.F.F
Shut.The.Uffin.Fridge.Frank.............?
Stop.Tipping.The.Freakin.F***
lool

la la la la la

i might not know what i do when i am stressed, but i think i just found out what i do when i am bored.

i hate those freakin Quest commercial. 'i stay at home and talk to random guys over the phone on a friday night instead of going out and talking to a real person'....GET A LIFE!!

ok, ronnie called. g2g.

lol

bye

...About My Rude Ass Friends

What does it mean when someone you care about calls you an ass, a cow, and a moneky face....ALL AT THE SAME TIME!

I think it means that you have the rudest friends in the world.

Sure, that might be their way of saying they love you, which with this particular friend I am sure is hte case, but still!
And then she has the nerve to deny it was her who said it when the super sweet and kind and nice and considerate friend of ours asks her about it.
Gee Wheez!

Anyway, moving along...
I don't know what to write about. I am so not in teh mood lately to get into lengthy details about what has been happening with me lately. I mean, you all know about it anyways, right?

So with that said I am outta here. Nothing to say. Or maybe too much to say but I am too lazy to type it out.

So adios!

PS. I dont have to teach for the next two weeks! Whoo hoO!!!

...About Blogging (again)

To Blog or Not to Blog

that is in fact the question. at least amongst our group of homie g's.
on the one hand we come on to blogspot at least once a day (even when we have a shit load of work to do) to see if anyone has blogged and we get upset if they haven't but on the other hand we are too lazy to blog ourselves. so at times we have the genuine intention of writing something, anything, so that we can vent or say whatever we need to say and to also entertain our friends, but we never actually get anything posted. because we are too busy to post...but never too busy to read other peoples posts. but if you think about it, it probably takes as much time to go around reading everyones post as it does to write a single on of your own. ya know what i'm saying?

so i thought that i would post, after figuring out from steve that no one has done anything new. i have yet to check myself. because i have no time to and i figured if i dont blog now then i wont be for a LONG time- this week is super busy with school work and next week i am super busy with Ronnie- who is not coming on SUNDAY!!!! Whoo hoo! (versus monday night, for those that didnt know).

i am not feeling too well today. this is not good. i need to be in my best health for at least the next 2 weeks. but alas, i woke up with a sore throat and my head hurts. i just feel dizzy. i dont know why. so i didnt go to school, mainly because i have to finish some assignments and i have no time to do it other than today, and i have to sacrifice skipping a class to do it. meh.

here's my life for now:
Tues (today)- lady coming to fix my hair to see how i will wear it on sat; study for wed. test
Wed- assignment due and test; study for piano; meet up with steve for presentation
Thurs- piano test; skip class again to get dress fitted; drive back to york in time for council meeting; meet up with steve to go over presentation
Fri- do presntation with steve (with special dance from the office ;)); work until 8 and then clean my room and crash
Sat- a) either open store and leave early to order cake for engagement or b) get cake and then go to work to close the store; get nails done with the girls! YEAH! (steve and ken you are more than welcome to join. lol)
Sun- RONNIE COMES!; go shopping and figure out anything else that needs to be done FAST!
Mon- engagement stuff
Tues- more engagement stuff
Wed- go out with ronnie all day for valentines (he has something planned and i dont know what)
Thurs- camp at the airport- ronnie's bro comes at 6, sis comes at 10, parents come at 11. ahh!
Fri- speical religious ceremony that will make me and Ronnie legally married. yes that's right i will officially be his wife on friday. this doesnt usually happen until a few days before the wedding but we decided that this was a great opportunity since all my family will be here so we are doing it (which reminds me, on monday we have to get our marriage certificate, or whatever it is); at night we go for dinner, and in the late night all the young people go out to party!
sat- wake up early from a late night to get ready for party!
sun- family leaves
mon- ronnie leaves and i aint gonna teach! thats for damn sure

anyway, this post is too long, and i dont blame you all if u didnt read it, but it has helped me organize my schedule for the next 2 weeks. so yeah for me....

...About My Jerk Ass Friends

My friends are jerks.

I don't have to say why.

They know why.

I thought that I was going to miss them when I am gone....but naw dice.

I can't wait to leave now.

Monekys!

...About Sensitivity

The days are going by really quick. At least they are for me.
I feel like I have something to do everyday, whether it be for school, FESA, the engagement, with family, Ronnie, teaching and now work, and everything else. I don't mind the busy work. I like staying busy. It can get stressful, but that's life. I get stressed but I get over it with time. After a while it doesn't become such a big deal.

However, I find that things in my household are changing. And when I say 'things' I really mean emotions. Ever since I made my relationship official with Ronnie I find all the time I spend with family, all the moments we share, all the events we go to and celebrations become more meaningful. This is because in a few months time things will be completly different for my family and for the house simply because I will not be living at home anymore. So we have become real senstivie of our surroundings and the things that we share.

For example, I showed my father my grad photos when I received them. Of course I wanted to get his input on what I should get. I joined him on the couch and sat beside him and showed him the pics. He took a look at the first one, looked at me, looked back at the pic and back at me, and got real teary eyed. I mean, he was going to cry. And I know that if I stayed there with him and cried as well (which was what I was about to do) he would have begun to ball. Instead I told my father not to cry and then got up and left. I know that seems so odd for me to do. Even Ronnie told me I should have hugged him. But I couldn't. I would have totally lost it. I think my father would have been overwhelmed with the photos either way, but its different when you know that the grad photos don't only represent the end of your schooling, but also the end of my living at home. After all, once I convocate I am outta here to Lebanon to get married. So they just make things more emotional.

New Years was emotional as well. I hugged my father for a long time, and I cried when i hugged my mom....and basically cried when i hugged everyone else...well, almost. lol. But you know what I mean. Next year I might not be there to celebrate with them, for the FIRST time EVER. I have ALWAYS been with family for New Years, no excuses. Next year, who knows.

We took my mom out for her 50th Birthday on Sunday (hence why I wasn't with you folks...but you still could have called when you went to D's house!! ;) ) and when we surprised her with cake and sang to her she cried. This usually doesn't happen. I tried to just laugh it off and took silly pics with her, but I got teary eyed still.

I know you guys think I am so insensitive from my reactions to all these emotional outbursts, but its not that I am that way. I just don't know how to handle it. I am not sure why. It's almost like I don't want them to be sad and try to get their mind away from the fact that I am leaving, so I laugh it off. Or...I walk away....

After talking to D one day I came to realize how hard this must be on my parents.
I am super close with my father. Let's face it, I am 'daddy's little girl', and I mean that in the least bratty way possible. But it's true. I am the only girl of three boys. Of course I am going to have a special relationship with my dad.
As for my mother, I realize now that once I am gone she will be the only female in the household, left to take care of everything. And what I mean by that is she will be left to solve all the problems on her own and try to handle all these situations by herself. I back my mom up all the time with this. And my role in the house is a neutral one, where I listen and try to help solve things. I won't be there anymore to do that. Weird....
As for my brothers....well, I am their only sis. Enough said.

I know I said this before, but it's interesting how things change. All for the better of course. And I also just realized that my family will be moving to our new home without me. I mean I MAY be there for a month or two but after that I am gone. So it really does feel like we are each starting a new life in a new home.

I know this message is really long....so I can't bother D anymore for writing long posts. But it's just something I needed to express. Maybe because I just came back from having coffee with my cousin for 3 hours. Who knows.

I hope I didn't bore you though. And I don't blame you if you didn't read it all. lol.